ISSUES

GRRR... Always had them always will....well i hope they go away i know its not right to hate your body but I just dont like mine at all! Everytime i look in the mirror i cry.

Just frustrated

My throat hole hurts so effin bad right now I cant even explain the pain. Except that its constant, it hurts to talk, hurts to swallow hurts to eat...hmmm not all bad. maybe a new diet fad? ugh! no no no.. I only ran one day this week yesterday and only two miles because of the stupid hole in my throat hurting! I was doing so good with my running and now the pain in my throat is getting it the way of everyday enjoyments..UGH!!!!
I went to the doc a few weeks back and was told its a virus rest... uh really? apparently you don't know me to well.. I have 3 monsters at home and a ginormous monster of a husband that all need entertainment....
Starting from the beginning of my sickness, I would have to say it started in August the week before the 13th to be precise, I know this because the 13th was our 5 year wedding anniversary and I was sick with a cold (that started with a soar throat hole) all week...then the night of our anniversary I lost my voice and had laryngitis for a week...then i got it back but still and slimers in my chest and on top of that got poison ivy which lasted two weeks on top of a cold. The whole month of September I was sick either coughing up goober monsters or blowing slime out my nose holes. all starting with the feckin sore throat! this is my 3rd one in 2 months! This one hurts worse than I can remember the others hurting because this one feels like a cat is in the back of my throat trying to claw its way out!
on top of this I took my poor second monster into the doc on Tuesday for an ear recheck and now both tubes are out and he as a double ear infection. She said one more recheck next month and if its not gone we got straight to ENT for round 3 of tubes. UGH!
I need a vacation!

WOW

Speechless, is the only word that comes to mind right now. Never mind that I haven't ran since Friday, never mind that I have been sick for 2 months, never mind that I am not happy with my body or self, never mind that woke up crabby and bitchy and stuff...but WTF? Another death (suicide) of a classmate What is going on, I get it life is hard life sux life isn't fair some people may not like you, you may be financially stressed, going through a divorce, single, homeless, depressed. But to take your life doesn't complete you it leaves those of us that love you with more questions.
I wonder most days why my cousin killed himself, leaving 2 daughters behind. Questions will never be answered. All that is known was that he was depressed.
GRR... Just ruined my day... i get this is not about me but it is my blog and im really bummed.... another childhood friend gone...

update on my running

I have been doing so good running this is my 3rd week although I didn't run last Friday I did make up for it Saturday and ran 6 miles!!
I did not run this morning cuz i have a stupid sinus infection and decided against it, now sitting here i am restless because I didn't run! so that is what I will be doing when I get home!
Very frustrated with my weight too. need to be more careful with stuff. grr..
The nice thing about being sick! I cant taste anything so don't really need to eat much. whoot!
that was lame bye have a nice day

yay

Two days in a row I got my ass out of bed and jumped on my treadmill that stares me down every day. so haha treadmill i beat you!
Don't get me wrong I run and I run allot but usually outside. I am trying something new and running in the morning unfortunately its dark out but fortunately I have a treadmill...although I would so rather be running outside....
So far I love it and the way I feel in the morning. Also its not taking time away from me and my kids as I usually run at night after work. And even though this is day two I feel so alive when i get to work and not dragging my ass!!
But last night I really didn't know what to do with myself because I had already ran and felt I needed to do something because I have always ran at night after dinner....so i worked out.. haha.. o.k. enough still on a high from my run..
buhbye...

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Widget

So I added a handy dandy little widget for running…now my problem is I don’t know when I will be able to run again because of the fricken poison ivy! UGH!
But I am not letting the Ivy get me down yesterday I took over 1,000 steps that was I should explain better ok 13 flights of stairs 4 times then walked a mile to the library on my lunch break then last night when I got home I only did my lateral thigh machine for 10 minutes and felt I cheated myself….
Monday I did it for a half hour and Sunday uh….20 minutes so I am keeping my self going plus doing some kettlebells and my ab roller….but I really really REALLY feel its not enough when I cant run I cant seem to satisfy my body with other exercises… ok scratch that kettlebells do kick ass and I love them but running is my true love.
We went to my mom and dads last night for dinner and the kids had a blast running around...shooting the bb gun is my oldest fave because well its his but it has to stay there because i dont want it at our place...I have a love and hate relationship with guns. My mom was doing well although she now has gout.. my dad is doing well he mowed the lawn for 6 hours and they were happy to see my little men...Jas got to spend the night so he was super excited about that..My mom loaded me up with "stuff" to take care of my poison ivy I asked if I could take her home with me...last time I had the Ivy it was bad she stayed in the living room with me day and night and took care of me...so as i lather my self up with the "stuff" I smile and pretend she is there helping me...so not the same her hands and touch are so soft...i love my mummy!